45 million lives and counting.

Are we living for death?
.. but it's so easy, so fast, so insignificant.
you would never know how easy.
you would never know how simple.
is it bad to make life a little easier?
a little more simple?
Oh, so we live for simplicity.
in a place that discourages purity. WHAT?
Well, I am ready to be
hurt,
challenged,
hated,
in an endeavor to open doors for
Trust,
Hope,
and Love,
to rush into this madness.

I'd like to be known as an... optimistic pessimist.

And one particularly dull evening, Cameron Jones was on the verge of enlightenment. The causes were never breached but the effect was obvious; he was a genius, in his own respect. So he sat, repeatedly exchanging insight with the restless air around him, constantly wavering in his position wether or not to confront a more participant audience, and reluctantly observing that people were much too fickle to settle down and understand. It was simply a sad thought, that humankind had gone so far as to wearily dismiss exuberant optimists. But it was natural, his own life had experienced the enjoyment of being pessimistic and hopeless. Granted, some patient souls had reason to be that way, though reason had seldom convinced anyone to do anything.

Impulse

Blood pulses through my veins
faster, faster, but all the same
this fragile friendship now proclaims
an ignorant blessing
is shared in pain

I overcame my distant fear
all the while drawing near
freeing from my selfish outlet
the only moment I held dear

Singing & shouting is all but wasted
the love I expect, just barely tasted
crude in exposure
the vitals faded

Though, maybe my heart was justified

Resentful & bitter to all but one
dismissive until the best was done
craving the attention
but never minding the setting sun

Was it fair to not back down?
no, I am the reason for that frown
the patient soul who deserved so much
trapped in this obsessive town

Have I created this complication?
unlocked a heart for invasion?
Oh, I am at fault

My intentions were never justified

Here On Out

who are you living for
what are you waiting for
how are you doing now
who are you obsessed about?
have you changed at all
do you cry the same call
are you friends with them still
is your life about having thrills?

Cuz I hope that, you've learned some things
and I pray that, you aren't the same
and I wish you, the best of a life
just remember, you have to try

have you answered those cries
do you resort to lies
will you see skin deep
or fall down on your knees?
will you strive to change
can you share the blame
are you wasting time
have you crossed the line?

are you the person I knew so well
will these questions be of help?
have you strayed from who you are
have you killed the chance of my heart?

cuz I hope that, we'll learn some things
and I pray that, we won't be the same
and I wish us, a good long life
if we'll strive to, do what's right

Spring Mistake

Breaking these emotional ties
instead of relying on your lies
exaggerating the pain
won't get you a good name
avoiding the inevitable
won't ever be helpful

if thats all you're aiming to do...

Lets go back to the place where this started
& the look on your face, was I a target?
how about we stop complicating simple things
and participating in unhappy endings

Cringing away from confidence
Choose now and get off the fence
screaming for love
you'll never get enough
shouting for peace
won't convince me

if thats all you're aiming to prove...

The Best Things Only Last a Moment

I saw a flicker of love cross your face
I smiled cause you have innocence that still remains
nothing blocked the way that you felt
cause for the first time in a long time, you knew it well

that ray of joy that surpassed your hate
soon swallowed by what hit you, far too late
then it suddenly flashed from your face
if I could I would cherish the image, till my dieing day

If you were a star you'd have shined brilliantly
don't you know that you could be all you could be
if you'd just breathe

ignore what people have to say
and enjoy the beauty of the light of day
adore all you have before its gone
don't let people stop you, from carrying on

You Were Never Alone

The emotion on your face
that sorrow, a bitter taste
Rejected, marked as greed
is your heavily burdened need
Hushed are your spoken words
aimless, in search for cure
But determined, you'll always be
to find, to know, the freest free

Steady, you learn to go
but shame you'll forever know
harmless, though life may seem
Sometimes a nightmare; the cruelest dream
But wake! Oh heartless soul
in the end, there is a goal
One is waiting with open arms
to carry you through your endless harm
He came to set you free
Just call, and be redeemed

Dear You

Run Run, little one
for life is short at hand
Flee Flee, darling
for your days are soon to end
Wake Wake, slumberer
you have a heart to defend
Dream Dream, children
as long as you are friends
Scream Scream, grievers
you have a voice to lend

Love Love, little one
live without regret
Hope Hope, broken heart
have faith and do your best
Cry Cry, unheard voice
before eternal rest
Leave Leave, spotless soul
cherish that innocence
Fight Fight, hardened life
hold on to what is left

Run Run, little one
for your life is not a dance
Hush Hush, hasty child
there are many seeds to plant
Come Come, wanderer
form a steady stance
Stand Stand, restless heart
accomplish what others can't
Keep Keep, that pureness
your potential needs a chance

Complications

And when you're gone
I hope you remember
my heart is yours
forever
and when you're alone
I hope you recall
the time we had
when nothing went wrong

Lately my life's been moving slowly
waiting for you to say your goodbyes
someday I pray we meet again
sometime soon my friend

And when I'm lost
I will remember
My heart was yours
for never
And when I'm alone
I will recall
the time we spent
when everything when wrong

The complications
that urge you to move on
yours always weighing
the pros and all the cons
your hope it flickers
flickers off and on
I'll be your friend now
until you've up and gone

Will You Rise At Midnight?

Why do you tear down these walls of innocence?
Guess I'll build bridges of senselessness
How can you fake all the things you own?
Yet shout about everything you know?

Maybe I'll just quit
Cuz I really don't fit
here at all.

Planning this Emotional Suicide
It's better than watching you die
You don't hear a word I say
just leave your thoughts at bay
Well I'll confess
It's my selfishness
that's throwing you aside

Let me get this off my chest
Sometimes I think that I'm the best
And there aren't many things worse than that
But you have. to. understand.

Planning this Emotional Suicide
Its all because I'm watching you die
We were such good friends
so how did that end?

I have to stand up for myself
cuz no one else will
Oh, no one else will..

Edgar Evenstar

In the gloom has she dwelt
love nor care has she ever felt
save the says of old/past
a shadow it has cast
upon the soul and the floor
windst she dwelt, forevermore

Hearts are bound to hold pride
ignorance, arrogance, lies
Soon to chain and bind
themselves deep inside
till scarce a word uttered
has not been frequently muttered

Lying on the dark, damp ground
tis lost and never found
the soul that passed from life
but behold, she n'er truely died
the mind left to wander
without a thought to ponder

Bringer of Light

Well, I've never thought that your happiness was uncool

But first impressions always manage to fool

My narrow perspective saw what it believed

And I glad. you came. to shatter that glass

It's easy enough, to turn in a huff

when the truth is open and out

My heart was torn up, but you were a crutch

that I never had to doubt

[[chorus]]

Oh my

Kindred spirit, the mem'ries we share

will last forever with some good care

you may not know it but everyone sees

nothing can shake

you and me

And when I cried, you offered your shoulder

cuz "That's what they are for."

And when you couldn't stand your life

I'd remind you, "There's so much more."

like overcoming misery

laughing at the future

And opening the knocked on door.

[[chorus]]

Oh my

Kindred spirit, the mem'ries we share

will last forever with some good care

you may not know it but everyone sees

nothing can shake

you and me

Current Situation

This isn’t about what you think it is

things always play out the way we should have missed

a tight smile, a sudden glare

a deep thought, a tactless care

time depends on your hands

where she goes you wouldn’t dare

One thing leads to another

but not in this case

who cares, he’s your brother

who knew, you’re a fake

two lives, one broken heartbeat

to far, to make the ends meet

so little time you have

to comprehend what she needs

But as soon as the topic comes up

the topic is erased from our memory

because we’d rather feel brand new

we’d rather reminisce old memories

Heed the Smile and Screams

v1
How can you (2x) have it all figured out

walking quickly but you never ever look down

Holding this flag (2x) its white as a cloud

I'm not giving up yet, but I'm slowly bowing out

chorus

Hold up and make some noise

cause I haven't heard a thing for so long

just wait, I'll tell the boys

That you're running off without a single song

without a single sound

v2

Just you wait (2x) till things stop going well

burning buildings, but you've got a smile to sell

Fall alone (2x) we will if we wish at that well

I'm moving on no more time to kill

chorus

v3

Shut it down (2x) or bring it back again

its up to you, but me as well to be a friend

Meet me soon (2x) on the street of hearts to mend

we have some subjects now and letters to send

chorus

bridge

Black & blue aren't the colors of us

I turned to you when I needed so much

Empty pages fill the possible books

frowning faces fill the lives that you took

Control

The course of sea never took its toll on me

as we traveled through oceans of faces

Open gateways murmured their lovely rhymes

And your condolences were never a match to mine

The course of fate refused to catch them too late

lining hallways seldom stood souls

To resist was never an option openly spoken

But the ways in which to succumb were taken

Tuesdays, beckon you to come

Fridays, beg you to run

Sundays, bring you back again

All week your heart, you defend

The sleet and rain endeavored to abstain

Subside quickly became awaited on

All we could do was lull through your goodbyes

In ourselves we attempted to confide

some things require no reason

Do you find it hard to relax and stay calm

Do you pick yourself up after you fall

Tuesdays, beckon you to come

Fridays, beg you to run

Sundays, bring you back again

All week your heart, you defend

I've got nothing to lose, nothing to keep, nothing to write a psalm for

"I love you" he said and it was written in red

I've got everything to lose, everything to love and die for

what about you?

what will you do?

when everyone lets go of your hand

Fitting Into That Category

vs.

the pace of your mind, the careful design

did it ever get you far

the blood on your hand, the etches in the sand

will they heal all your scars

pre.chorus.

but it's too late to save this

I'm too scared to play this part

I wish that this would last forever

but some things they have to change

no matter how much you are clever

the beat of your heart's the same

One day, we'll know, if I was the one for you

Last chance, to say, what you always thought you knew

vs.

the darts shot around, the cold of this crowd

it will always make you run

the fault of your thought, the laughter that you bought

you are never ever done

pre.chorus.

but I'm too weak to save this

you're too smart to play this part

Always Love

Always love
Always hope
just be tough
learn to cope
hug your friends
nicely joke
say amen
be a dope
be yourself
be your own
ask for help
come back home
never doubt
win the race
life's about
keeping faith

Matters of the Heart

Things always start out simply
but they complicate so quickly
the one thing that I know
is I hardly learn from anything

.....

Please don't let this end
Please don't let this stop
this time, so soon

How many times do we have to
hurt this bad, oh only a few
the resolution never came
cause I never learned from anything

.....

Please don't let this end
Please don't let this stop
this time, so soon

I have accomplished
the one thing that I promised
I would never do.

He Couldn't Even Start

wiping a tear from her eye

he promised, "This is the real goodbye"

she turned a corner

and drowned him in lonely lullabies

Live in the colorful world

of butterflies

don't resist, you'll understand

in time

But

"dream on, you can't go wrong accepting the lies"

is what he screamed through his eyes

their stares darted through his heart

where they stop he couldn't even start

keep a watchful eye

she'll drown you in lovely lullabies

Live in the colorful world

of butterflies

don't resist, you'll understand

in time

But

"dream on, you can't go wrong accepting the lies"

is what he screamed through his eyes

dont lose who you are

just because you got so very far

they'll carve their words into your heart

and you will beg to rewind

That One Epic

It's too bad no one watches you break down

It's cuz of the walls you build that no one's around

That's all we care about

All we ever had

Across the endless ocean he heard call

the voice of a stranger made him fall

The cries of his mother pushed him on

for the stranger was a beloved one

Pulling me away

Swallow me into a perfume
of yellow and blue
"I didn't want to hurt you"
that is so new
The ending never had
any light
Except the little that pulled me
away from you

But,
Fading into a dimmer star
and creating the maze that you are
could resurrect the shame, we hide away
Planning a trip to over seas
could complicate your biggest dreams
just don't forget to, forget about me

Now the Poison is sinking in
But the reason is wearing thin
Keep your distance or make amends