Old Flame

I never meant to break my promise
I never meant to disappoint You this much
but I did, oh I did

common ground was not so common anymore
so I let my heart wander out the door
and I lost it, You know I lost it

I choked on water when You pulled me from the waves
I didn't know that You had pulled me from my grave
so it happened, I ran away

my burden fell off as I took longer strides
I didn't notice what was buried inside
now I feel it, oh I feel it

my fingers dripped with something that gave me a fright
was the blood from your heart or was it from mine?
... or was it from both, was it from both?

Please let me stay awhile
in this garden, where I smile
Don't let it fade away
I don't want to shut down again

I never meant to do that, I never meant to lose it
I never meant to run away, I never meant to feel it
I never meant to make you bleed
I never meant to make you bleed

Today

I don't have much to say. haven't been writing a whole lot. just playing guitar and piano and singing.
more and more, I've been realizing lately that I dwell on the past. too much.
maybe.
this afternoon, a bunch of old journals entertained me.
I ironed a stockpile of neglected letters. now they are nice and smooth and safely tucked away in a puppy folder I got in 5th grade.
safely tucked away. time will probably not be kind enough to let me go through everything I rediscovered today, but I don't really mind.
goodnight.

The problems of the past darkened the sky today
and as it grew worse I became afraid
The promise of tomorrow restored my hope for today
and I don't have to be afraid...