Make a Decision

Do you ever feel like you've been pushed and prodded, ever so gently, into a situation that makes you want to stand up and yell "I AM SO SORRY" and then curl up into anyone's arms and cry?
and when you're in that situation..
Do you ever wonder why you let someone other than God open your chest and open your heart and claim what they see fit?
and after you've let yourself become so vulnerable..
Do you ever stop and realize that what is going wrong is all your fault?

We're allowed to ask for help, we're encouraged to ask for help.
but when asking for help really matters, we aren't allowed to have problems.
so everyone expects everyone to deal with their own issues, in covert ways so that the burden is never shared.
and we complain about life being hard?
but most of us have no idea what having a hard life looks and feels like.
I have no idea what a hard life looks and feels like.

so. if we don't really know what a hard life is, then that must mean we have relatively good lives.
of course, that depends on you, opening your eyes and accepting the fact that God has blessed you more than you can comprehend.
so if we have good lives, or any kind of life at all, we have the choice to enjoy it.
It is a decision.
a common misconception is that deciding to enjoy life means pasting a smile on every morning and keeping that smile intact until you're safe in your bed that night.
wrong.
that is not enjoying life, it's putting on a facade that you are.
enjoying life is a decision, but one that has to be made again and again and again until it's true.
I think something that recent generations have missed is that
to enjoy life
you
have
to
work
hard.

which will require your tears, your sweat, and your blood.
but it's worth it.
it's worth every tear, every drop of sweat, every drop of blood,
if at the end of the road as Jesus sweeps you up into Heaven, you look back and remark, "Hey, through all the tough stuff, I really enjoyed that."
And then Jesus, wrapping you up in His arms says, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

yeah, that would be worth it.